Lookingonthebrightside’s Weblog

We had a good chat about all sorts. I really enjoyed spending time with her. I like her a lot. She’s the only person off my (mental health nursing) course that I actually want to spend time with in the holidays. She’s easy to be with. She’s clever. She’s interesting. She’s funny. And she’s human. The hours flew by. About 4 of them. And I could’ve easily chatted for another 4.

I was slightly worried about her if I’m very honest. She’s doing too much. And she seems to be dragging herself through each day without much to look forward to. I don’t think that’s great. And I don’t think you can do it forever. I hope she takes good care of herself. Soon. xxxxx

Tomorrow I will find out my shifts for my next placement which starts in about 10 days. I am expecting a struggle. I am expecting to be a bit dissociative at times. I am expecting (at times) to feel like a six year old abandoned far from home. That’s how I generally feel when the agoraphobia kicks in. That might be because that’s when and how it all started. But I think I will survive it. And I think I will function okay on placement. I think I will be able to contain the trauma to times and places where it is acceptable not to be okay. That’s good enough for me.

If and when I qualify, I don’t intent to get a job outside of the city in which I live.